yesterday night i was so tired and sleepy, and decided to sleep once my hair dried. at that point i hadn't done my tawg yet, and wasn't really intending to do so. so i went to tumblr and decided that reading a christian tumblr instead would make do. but everything on that tumblr seemed to point me to the Word, urging me to open the Bible. i remember one quote :
“What if all it took to bring us to our knees and to ignite our affections was the Word opened and the presence of God? What if that was enough for us? What if it didn’t take a great band to evoke that kind of response from us in worship? What if His presence - His Word opened - what if it was enough?” —David Platt
so yup after that i just went to read the word and God reminded me of how it's a privilege to be in this position, to serve and to help others grow. it's a privilege to be promoted in church, to be given a position to effect a godly and positive change in the lives of other children of God. this year i haven't been doing much and making full use of this power God has given me. and if i am not going to use it, what should God keep me there for? God is not dumb, he sees my heart and knows the condition of it. very surely i am not as "good" as i was before, and my passion has been dying.
but that doesn't mean i have to let things remain this way. gotta get my act back together soon, especially since i'm probably gonna have to lead cell next year. how can i expect to nurture and help others grow when i myself am not even growing?
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anyway today was a slack day again. went to school for house comm meeting. it was my only free day but i guess it was fine. anyway i think i should try to get to know house comm better, and stop sticking to my house d and a few people in house comm. gotta reach out to them first, make them feel like we care enough to get to know them before they will feel the need to reach out to the rest of bwians. it's really the chain effect thingy, so i shall try to be more genuine in knowing them from now on.
then yq tessa and i suddenly met hehe and we ate omg i keep eaitng it's too much already. but i did a short workout just before this so i guess i don't feel so guilty anymore hahaha. charlene came to rj too and i met her yay!
oh and received a nice nice nice long text from clinton wong this morning as a thank you for the whole pw journey. then i decided to write back on paper so that he could keep it hehe. clinton wong i think u may be reading this since u said smth about reading my blog hahahaha if u see this thank u for being such a great pw mate i'm glad we had pw cos otherwise i'm quite sure we wouldn't have become closer :> we still need our baking session!!!
anyway this is random but sometimes after blogging i feel very erm, sad. ok not sad but the mood just changes it's not a very cheery mood anymore but a very......... thoughtful mood? HAHA. idk if that's good or bad. i guess it isnt good to have this mehhh mood for too long but some of it sometimes is good. plus i have this rule of not blogging too much about sad stuff because the more i talk about it, the more sad i'd get. so hopefully through what i blog about i can organise my thoughts and think about the happy part about sad things instead :>
this is also very random but i just saw the hand sanitizer from briana and estelle. hahahha they're so cute i doubt they'll ever see this (not that anyone rly sees what i post here anyway) but yeah they never fail to make my day. it's like i don't even know them but they are so nice and keep giving me letters and gifts??? hehe little things like these rly make my day i think i am very easily contented. shall try out this kind of kind acts next time maybe they'll just brighten someone's day :>
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