woes

everyday is a struggle nothing seems to be going right for uni or at least not what i expect it to be. i didn't get to study what i want to (which is partially my own fault), going to study in the uni i least want to be in, did not get the scholarship i wanted, can't even get into orientation camps, may not get to stay with my room mate?? the future ahead looks so bleak. 

God if this is where you want me to be then please show me what to do from here? it's really not easy and sometimes i just want to pull out of school and go overseas to do med. to study what i really want to study. but because of the prayer i prayed i shall trust You that where you've led me to is where you want me to be. i guess only in times like these am i able to truly say that i want Your plan for me not because your plan for me is good but because they are Your plans, and even if they are painful, i will accept it. 

You give and take away, my heart will choose to say blessed be Your name. 

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on a lighter note, i think i may be dyeing my hair tomorrow? bought the dyes today and laura may be coming over to help me tmr! something to brighten up this season i guess. also, HIS LIFE musical is this week!!! if anyone even sees this and is interested, it's basically a musical by a 80-strong membered cast from the USA of broadway standard, and this time it's fully sponsored by my church!!!! it's gonna be amazing and i'm excited too :D if you don't want to reveal that you know my blog you can just say you found out from my insta LOL do come!!!!!!!!!! don't miss this opportunity and invite your friends!!!! since it's free and church paid already don't waste!!! ^___^  

driving :(

failed my driving test and was honestly q disappointed like zzzz sianz i rly wanted to pass on first try??? partially because I am gonna start uni soon and driving will be another burden esp when I'm gonna be living on pulau ntu. also that my pdl is expiring this Friday so it costs even more money + another trip down to renew it. but another part is also to be able to proudly say that I passed on my first try?? maybe there's a little pride involved in this thing but I just really, really wanted to pass. prayed that I would do well for God's glory but who am I kidding??? we always use this phrase so casually I wonder how many times we truly mean it when we say it. 

but anyway, no point being so hung up about it I will just move on!!!! I guess God is just trying to save me from an accident or smth HAHA. special thanks to kit who i bumped into otw out of cdc (he was driving inside the car HAHA) who met me at paya lebar and took train with me to bugis!!!!! u r a wonderful friend kitz im really thankful to be your friend 🙆 PLS pass your driving this wed don't end up a sad case like me HAHA. also bumped into buddy tung and Dexter there?? nice short catch up with both of them esp dexter LOL I can't even say this is a catch up because I think this is the most we have ever talked HAHA. 

so much regret right now!!! God pls help me out of this dumb situation I got myself into