Good week

Life has been pretty much good so far!! No work this week because my boss left us out zzzz. But it's my last week with all the NS guys so I'm gonna try to catch up with as many as possible before they enlist!!!

Actually I think people make enlistment sound worse than it actually is. It's not like we aren't gonna see them anymore, just not on weekdays for the bmt period. And I think once they get their vocations they are freer?? Depending on vocation la. And they get to use their phones so we can actually still talk to them!!! I just rly hope the physical distance doesn't cause me to drift from people, especially those I hold really dear to me. But i believe with effort made all relationships can be sustained!!!!!!! 

Also I am quite frightened by the chaos going on in the world esp by extremist groups what is the world turning into oh gosh. Why can't people just kill them with kindness instead????? I rly can't believe people can be so cold blooded. It's so so scary and I don't think it's gonna get any better in the years to come. It's only going to get worse. God pls keep sg safe!!!! 

Wow

So much respect for a certain friend of mine who I'm not exactly close to but has been an inspiration to me 

hello

im amazed people still read my blog!!! :O

had quite a bit of things to say just now, but i'm in such a rush to finish up btt revision so i guess i'll save it for another day. am quite not confident now HAHA shouldn't have pushed studying to the last minute!!! :( meeting charles for lunch after since we have the exact same btt time slot and venue HAHAH fated much. 

anyway work was good today because time passed quickly. i think work only sucks when i'm bored because 6h of being bored and not being able to sit down is no joke. HAHA. plus clinton and his mum came to visit and bought bread!!!! and i gave them a 20% discount teehee. 

looking for another job since i think i'm quitting duke after my internship. hope i manage to find a good one!!!!!!!!!!! also i need to update my phone but i need to complete one last run with my iphone 5 before i can bear to move on to the 6. LOL. i think i'm quite weird sometimes. 

at this point in my life i'm so aimless and the only proper thing i do is church. for the past 3 weeks i've been spending half my life on church related matters and i like it :-) it's been a while since i was really involved in church and i am happy to be spending time in the house of God! plus my job is super part time like what 10h a week LOL. i really want another job that keeps me occupied soon!!! today after work i just slept and didn't do anything. maybe i'll bake tmr. but i also wanna run tmr. eeeeek. 

sn

went back to sn today for results collection and to eat our favourite ORANGE BOWL :))) and even had round 2 of chicken rice with fish after the results omg fatty day. really missed sn food!!!!!!!! rj food rly sucks. i rmb on wednesdays we always had dilemma on what to eat because there was too much nice food!!!!!!! didnt get to eat my ah pongs and drink fruit juice lemon barley mango smoothie nor eat blue bowl and many other things i like :( 

but anyway, sn did great again!!!!!!!! good results hehehe. glad my juniors kinda did not bad too and of course my bro whose hard work paid off :))) hehehe. now it's our turn in about 2 months time hahahhaha i really hope i'll be crying tears of joy and not disappointment!!! but oh well no point thinking about it nothing is going to change and the results have probably been determined long ago! 

then we walked around and took random photos HAHA most photos were really bad so only kept the few nice ones. hehe. 

anyway, today we went to the gym!!!!!!! honestly, i think exercising in a gym is way better because you feel like you have to keep exercising or else 1. you waste money 2. you'll look damn lousy and unfit HAHAHA and there's like motivation to keep exercising because the people there look really fit and i wanna be fit too. hehehe. there's much more momentum, and there is aircon!!!! normally i stop running because i find myself too sweaty so i didn't really have that problem today!! tried out some of the machines too HAHA they are quite interesting like they have different targeted muscles??? HAHAH. interesting experience anyway! 

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met my smallie cell for the second time today!! managed to talk to the only girl who came today (actually there are only 2 girls in the cell LOL) and another boy. hope i'll get to talk to the quieter ones soon!!!! thank God for my kpop phase in lower sec HAHA it helped me relate to her a lot!! also today during service the presence of God was really strong esp towards the altar call part and like i knew i had to pray for them and was a bit apprehensive but then i felt God saying that he would give me visions and the words to pray, that i wouldn't have to think of things to say myself but he will show them to me and all i have to do is to be sensitive to his voice and convey his word to the youths. so i just went to the first youth and started praying! and after the first 2 sentences it just started flowing and i can't rly rmb what i said because it was really just subconsciously coming out :) i hope i was able to minister to the youths!!! it feels great to be used by God!! being an AL isn't as scary as i thought it would be. actually it's too early to tell because it's only been 2 weekends HAHA but i believe God will help me with things he has called me to do! can't wait to see them grow up with the right foundations and i hope i'll be able to make a godly impact on them :)

boring day turned hapz

woke up and was really sian because today was supposed to be a boring day except for dinner but then impromptu plans to paint nails and meet plum so the day suddenly became very packed HAHA. stupid nail painting can be a 2-3h event because some nail polishes take ages to dry, like today's. grrrrrrr. even my complicated christmas nails took only an hour to finish. stupid. 

so i met plum to get a cover for my new iphone 6 which i still have not started using because changing phone is such a hassle and i am lazy. and we went for some llaollao where i met bob!!!!!!!!!!!!1 it was an extremely pleasant surprise hehe. missed bob!! i dont think we have met up properly this year at all. i mean last year like 2014. sad life is such. then went for dinner with a random group of buddies HAHA it was fun and funny!!! the food was really good. i love peperonis the pizzas are awesome. we got 2 xxls and then got one more because we were hungry!! HAHA. then we went to esplanade and sat by the river and rested. where we saw many couples we recognised hahahahah. it's quite a nice place actually i'll bring my bf there next time!!! then the 32nds left and the 33rds went for dessert at max brenner. it was so small and expensive but good. hur. 

then i had a good talk about some problem with a really precious friend of mine and i'm glad we kinda cleared things out!!!!!!!!!!! i really hope we will be close forever!!!!!!!! 

Extremist zzz

Was just reading this article on the people that died in the Paris shooting yesterday and it totally sucks that so many innocent people died. Like a maintenance worker and a random guy who had been invited to the editorial meeting and policemen who were just trying to do their job :( they aren't even linked to the problem and they just died. And quite a few of these innocent people are fathers. What's gonna happen to their kids :( ill die of sadness if my dad dies like that. Eurgh. :((( 

I wish religious extremist activities would stop now!!!!!!! Seriously what is the point??? people are just dying and like violence is not the way to go!!!! Haven't they heard of stuff like 'kill them with kindness'??? Oh gosh. If only the world would use kindness as a weapon to attack people. HAHA but sadly if that day ever comes, pigs will fly :-( 

spontaneous day

today has been a really really happy day!!!!!!!!!! woke up feeling sian because i kept the day free for work but i didn't get any schedule so i thought i was just gonna laze at home. then i tweeted casually asking if anyone wanted to go out with me and plum replied!!!!! so we decided to go to butterscotch but ended up going to tiong bahru to try the pasta i saw on burpple. hehe. it was cheap and good!!! v pleased with my lunch. much needed catch up with my dear friend hehe. 

anyway more importantly, I PASSED MY PIANO EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!11 WITH MERIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 this is the first merit i've gotten in my entire life!! normally i barely pass, with the exception of the weird distinction in grade 3. other than that i'm always extremely unprepared and just scrape my way through. really unexpected and thankful, considering i totally did not play up to merit standard so idek how it happened. waiting to see the exam report omg exciting. hehehehehe. happy that results are good after failing the first time!!!!!! thank God!!!!!!!!!! 

also, my dad got me an iphone 6 today and i didn't expect it too. i feel really bad because it is expensive and we aren't exactly very rich as of now. he said it was a reward and told me to work hard but im like what am i supposed to work hard for now?????? be a better sample giver???? LOL. feel blessed and loved. :') 

Zzzzz

really don't like some people ugh why can't they just disappear from the face of the earth :((((((((((( 

good start to 2015

went for church prayer meeting today and i'm glad i went!! i think this is the first prayer meeting i've been to in my many years of life in trinity hahahhahha new year new start!! while praying i just felt God telling me to let go of the things that weighed me down in 2014, like the strife and the people who make me upset. so yes audrey tan, stop wasting your time and emotions on rubbish and people who aren't going to make u feel better!!!! energy is better spent on things that make me happy and make people around me happy :-) also i realised that this year i'm gonna be spending a lot of time in church, or at least for the next 6 months with the entire weekend in church. quite happy about it though, my weekends are gonna be spent productively helping people and growing myself hehe. 

also, i'm gonna update my daily life on dayre from now on!!! it's ideky HAHA for once (or twice) not staplerfights. don't ask me why. i don't even know why (see what i did there) HAHAHAHAHA i just hope no one takes the stapler domain name. i won't be ditching this blog though, think i'm still gonna spend a fair bit of time updating this so ya. hehe. 

had a good day except for stupid transport fare that is a total ripoff. seriously 5 bucks for 3 rides today that weren't even long. walked 2 stops today just so i could save money HAHA think i need to spam sunblock from now on. 

hpny

chorale at watchnight :-)

happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! new year new start!! that's a phrase i've been telling myself for the past few hours HAHAH it's a new season! gonna experience many new things this year and i rly need to leave behind the baggage from 2014 so that i can move on to greater things this year :-) it is indeed a year of greater things!!

had a fun sleepover with some of my all-time favourite friends!!! honestly, i seriously dislike sleepovers now because it's so uncomfortable. especially if we sleep i mean like what's the point of having a sleepover if we are all gonna sleep??? might as well just go home and sleep right zzzz. but yesterday i have to commend some friends like plum and val who did not sleep with me hehehe. i think sleepovers are only worth going for if we don't sleep. HAHA. but anyway, thankful we got to spend time together and start the year together like we have been doing for the past few years :))) they have been my sources of support for a really long time and nothing much has changed!!! and we are so fail sometimes every year we are determined to have some good new year's supper but we always end up buying lame things like cup noodles lol. and yesterday we went all the way to thomson but it was too crowded so we ended up buying microwave food from 711 and bringing it back to ariel's house. then upon arrival we realised she didn't even have a microwave so we had to toast the food. pop and i even added water to the food because toaster causes the water in the food to evaporate?? compensate for the water evaporated. LOL. the food turned out weird though. LOL we are such jokes. 

anyway ytd i met my small cell for the first time and to my horror they were all small boys. like sec1-2s and there weren't any girls!!! it was so bad because i suck at talking to kids and guy kids are even worse because i really can't connect with them on any level. i even went to hide somewhere else in church for a while because i couldn't take it. felt like such a loser at that point. but anyway just now i went for a run but about 100m through the run i got a recurring stitch so i gave up running and walked the route instead and got a chance to think about this and like i guess this whole thing really takes time. i think i just need a while to get used to all these smallies and how to talk to them and share with them. it's gonna be really different but i will learn! and that's where God comes in, when i am inadequate he makes me whole!! and this whole thing isn't just about me helping people grow it's about me growing as well. i think i have really been under challenged these 2 years like i have not seen progress in myself at all in fact i think i have regressed. but i guess i have locked myself in for growth for the next 6 months HAHA and i'm believing for a good year :-) 

also i realised that so many of the world's problems stem from character flaws. got this perspective from a friend recently and it's kinda true, because they are inherent they are difficult to change. gonna try to change my character flaws this year, i think i kind of know what the major one is so i'll work on it!! gonna be hard but with determination it will work :)))