uy

was reading 1 kings ytd and saw read about UY. UY is really a problem that hit home a short while back, and i'm thankful for the reminder that i should never let myself fall into that or put myself in the position where i may slip into it. didn't know there were so many instances in the bible addressing the issue. guess God really doesn't want us to do it :(

lull period

was having random thoughts about leaving in june again. the enemy does surely attack when we are at our high!!! i guess now that i have given my yes i will persevere and ask God for love to love them. loving young people is really not me and there are so many other things i'd rather do on sunday mornings. need God to help me love them and be genuine!!! 

anyway, i miss going out with groups of friends. i think 90% of my outings now are like with groups of four or less and it's okay but i think i'm forgetting how to interact in bigger groups HAHA. like groups that i am completely comfortable with. miss all my sn friends sian i wish less of us were working so that our schedules wouldn't clash so bad eg. gr8!!!! and friendies!!! it's so difficult to coordinate dates where all of us can make it. hope it gets better in uni, when we all have school and end at proper timings. or at least i hope HAHA. 

was talking to foh today and i'm having mixed feelings about uni starting. i kinda want it to start because life like this is really boring and i need a school environment again. but no because once it starts life doesn't rly stop anymore and it will just keep going on. i'll study get a job and keep working all the way till i'm old. oh my goodness. can you believe it this is our last real break. 

rather excited for next month though, because i think i'm finally getting a job again HAHA just need to finish this course then i think i can start working. exciting!!!! 

thankful :-)

 

 

finally all uni stuff are over!!! had a good day with my war friends :-) i'm really glad we are still tight and hope we continue to be in the days ahead!!!!!!!! had a lot of fun today catching up i missed u guys hehe 

also, got the scholarship offer from a uni but it's not the one i wanted. a bit disappointed but i guess i should just be thankful i even got offered something?? i know some people haven't even gotten uni offers and i should be grateful for being so privileged already but just a bit sianz cos the diff between the one i wanted and the one i got is really huge. but ah i guess something is better than nothing!!!! and realistically speaking my cca records aren't that wonderful too so. 

but this means there is less incentive to go there HAHA oh well!!! God will pave the right way!!!!! 

been a good week so far i'm glad i managed to catch up with diff ppl although right now i can't rly rmb what happened on tuesday alr. looking forward to finally getting a job HAHA going down to get the app form on mon with foh!!!! before trying a cool cafe i always wanted to try YAY to salted egg fries!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

d

d interviews are finally over, but honestly i am quite disappointed. feel like i could have done better for the dexterity test/should have asked for a new wire zzzzzzzz idk why some people could ask for new wires but the person in my room clearly stated that no replacement of materials is given? sian. and the interview didn't go as well as i wanted it to go. but oh well, i guess it is over and if i really do get it it will be a pleasant surprise. if God means for it to be it will be!!!!!!!!!!!

but anyway, still very thankful to those who have helped, esp aunty jo who helped me so much. for constantly inviting me to come to the clinic and explaining stuff to me, asking around for me, lending me materials to practise though i didn't rly use them in the end and for looking out for me all the time. i'm beyond thankful for her!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and dr amy who was being very nice and caring and telling me so much, encouraging me to pursue it overseas although i don't think i will and bringing me out for lunch. i'll kinda miss the people at the clinic though i've only been there thrice. 

but yeah, since i can't do anything about it anymore i shall just be glad it is over! and if it really happens then i guess it will be a miracle and i can be certain that it wasn't me being confused. 

update

just some pics because i havent posted any for a really long time (apart from ilene's bday)

val's bday / failed attempt to pay respects to lky

old school delights!! one of the most underrated food places

2osm4u reunion

total wasted day today, apart from dinner with one of my best friends! was supposed to do my dental ps but too lazy. oh gosh. i really hope i get feels and complete it ASAP. going to the clinic tmr for a short while hope i learn smth!! then driving AHAHAH honestly i have improved but not that much. sigh pie. need better control of the clutch and gears!!!! i love using the steering wheel though!!

also, i just applied for new jobs HAHA i really hope i get it. need to tick things off my bucket list and do things i'll never get to do again. sigh!! stupid commitment requirement. :( im quite happy living the unemployed life but sometimes it's just too aimless and i feel guilty spending. maybe at the worst case i'll go back to duke but somerset outlet HAHA

“The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people.”

problem is, idek how badly i want it

we'll be fine!!!!!!!!!! we will be :)))