woes

everyday is a struggle nothing seems to be going right for uni or at least not what i expect it to be. i didn't get to study what i want to (which is partially my own fault), going to study in the uni i least want to be in, did not get the scholarship i wanted, can't even get into orientation camps, may not get to stay with my room mate?? the future ahead looks so bleak. 

God if this is where you want me to be then please show me what to do from here? it's really not easy and sometimes i just want to pull out of school and go overseas to do med. to study what i really want to study. but because of the prayer i prayed i shall trust You that where you've led me to is where you want me to be. i guess only in times like these am i able to truly say that i want Your plan for me not because your plan for me is good but because they are Your plans, and even if they are painful, i will accept it. 

You give and take away, my heart will choose to say blessed be Your name. 

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on a lighter note, i think i may be dyeing my hair tomorrow? bought the dyes today and laura may be coming over to help me tmr! something to brighten up this season i guess. also, HIS LIFE musical is this week!!! if anyone even sees this and is interested, it's basically a musical by a 80-strong membered cast from the USA of broadway standard, and this time it's fully sponsored by my church!!!! it's gonna be amazing and i'm excited too :D if you don't want to reveal that you know my blog you can just say you found out from my insta LOL do come!!!!!!!!!! don't miss this opportunity and invite your friends!!!! since it's free and church paid already don't waste!!! ^___^