she takes me high

whew cts are over!! it's 1:13am now and i don't need to force myself to sleep because there's no paper tomorrow! yay! 

actually, even though it's over it's not really over because all it means is that we're one step closer to ct2s, one step closer to prelims, one step closer to As. it's all happening really quickly time passes so quickly there's no time to waste. was lying on my bed before going down for breakfast today. was too lazy to get off so i told myself 'it's okay five more minutes'. then i realised all the 'five more minutes' i've been wasting my entire life. procrastination kills, it's really a lot of precious time wasted. i think i'm starting to understand what my parents mean when they say that time is more important than money at this stage of my life. right now i don't have to worry about money because my parents will provide for me so i should spend my time wisely doing useful things while i still can. like studying hard to give myself a good future and earn money to support my parents. 

anyway today after cts instead of going out i went to jiaying's house to bake cupcakes for tessa and eli's birthday!! it was good to see both of them again i realised we haven't met in a long time. as in just the 3 of us.  but things haven't really changed and i'm glad they didn't! ok actually they did but now everything is kind of back to normal and we are all comfortable around each other again. missed jiaying a lot i haven't spent much time with her since snchoir ended so i'm really really glad for today! oh and i finally ate my bandito pocket HAHA after craving it for a million years. 

anyway yesterday i came home early and tried to study physics but no it was so unproductive and i only started work proper at 5? got very distracted so at around 715 i decided i couldn't take it anymore and went for a run. decided that since i wasn't doing anything productive i might as well do something useful so yep finally got my fat and lazy ass out of the house to get some exercise! and i am so glad i did. was intending to run 3k and feel happy about it but after 3k i just felt like going on so i ran one more round around my estate! so yup i am a proud finisher of 4k yay :>>> it may not seem a lot but to me it is considering how i always stop at 2+ or 3k because it's boring or i just don't have the determination to complete longer distances. anyway exercising really releases endorphins!! always feel good when i get good exercise hehe and somehow running gives me a sense of accomplishment it's like pushing physical boundaries and conquering things you never thought you could. esp for an unfit and sedentary blob like me who hasn't been properly exercising for years. think i am going to exercise more from now on! it's good therapy hehe. oh one wish for my estate is that it would become more windy. some spots i run past are frustratingly hot and stale and i hate sweating so that is so bad. anyway i am also glad that i finally moved out of my treadmill comfort zone HAHA i don't think i'll ever run more than 2.4 on treadmill since it's so boring!!! you don't see anything change at all and all you can look at is the demoralising red dot which takes forever to move from one circle to the other. grrrrr. at least when you run outside you can see different things and look out for cats to avoid and all. makes the whole experience more interesting. hurhur. 

shall sleep now but i'm actually not sleepy. just don't wanna wake up too late tomorrow but still get lots of sleep before intense term2 curriculum starts. bye!