fight the good fight

pretty frustrated by something now and i really don't know what to do because i feel like i've done all i can to help things already but the other person doesn't seem to want to settle things so all i can do is wait...? oh well. hate it when the problem is just hanging like that and unsolved because it just makes things harder for everyone and implicates many people too. eurgh. don't even know what's going on in your mind because you refuse to explain what's going on. and because of that i don't know how to respond/how to act to make things better. but anyway despite this i am not going to give up on this friendship so easily i mean like no way man how am i to let all this go to waste????? i believe we are worth more than this, so please please please show me that we are. 

church today was about not giving up, and i think i really needed that! sometimes i give up too easily, like on my studies, and sometimes on people. giving up is such a waste sometimes, after you've come so far you suddenly let go and then poof all you've done in the past is gone. giving up on ct1s now would mean wasting these 3 weeks of possible study and prep for As. so nah after ihc is over, i promise i will be a better student and be a good steward of the opportunity i have been given to study, in a good school at that. 

anyway thankful for people that got me through the week! mainly ilene enqi and the class girls thanks for making school a happier place to be in :)))) 

yesterday was a good day though! nominees get together in the morning which was a burden, seriously. but got to take a look at the potential 34ths hhehee they seem impressive, or at least for those i got to see. hope i get a fun buddy!!!! mini war lunch and study session after which was quite fun hehe i like the war people (or at least those who bother enough to come)!!! thanks for teaching me the only bit of math i tried to do and sorry for being a distraction :( dinner at borshch our family restaurant but it was our worst ever experience there. they were severely shorthanded and we waited for like 1.5h for our food to come. don't know why they seem to be doing worse and worse but i shall continue to support them in case they close down. anyway if you're reading this please go try!!! very cheap 14.80 for a 4 course set dinner with appetiser soup main course dessert and a drink and 12.80 for set lunch they have a very homely setting it's nice for a chill day. hahahhaa it's at serangoon gardens opposite chomp chomp!! food isn't impressive but overall it's a nice place hahaha. 

today was not bad too, apart from the zzz problem. bob came to church today so i finally saw him again after a month!!!! was good to see him again hehe. went to school after ch playday today to meet hannah and finally got to talk to her again!!! missed her and how we kept meeting during dec hols hahaha. after she left i ended up talking to joshua goh for half an hour HAHAH it impromptu much. good talk anyway glad to have established a level of trust between us and he finally understands that i am not a dumb blonde. can't believe he genuinely thought i was blonde omg there is so much more to life than blondeness pls. then went home for dinner. food overload sunday night as usual, couldn't even finish my food hahaha. but not complaining i'm thankful for a dad that cooks and a family that is well-off enough to afford food. dessert was the best hahaha mango sorbet with frozen cubes of mango!!! 

As results are tomorrow i'm happy because i get to see my old j2 friends again but sad because that is probably the last time i'll see quite a lot of them - those i'm not close enough to to meet up with but are still nice and friendly and all. sigh!!! in one year's time that is going to be me and it's the last time i'll be in a school setting of some sort. /gasp 

but anyway, thank God for this week and i'm praying next week will be even better. He will take care of my problems so i have nothing to fear! :)