full of motion but no direction

 

^ these grad night photos are only those in my phone that are decent enough to be saved. the rest are in some dslrs and have not been uploaded 

a very eventful past 2-3 days hehe. yesterday was grad night!!! was actually dreading it but after it was over i was really really happy. idk why but i guess the mood was nice and i was having fun with my 33rds and finding seniors hehe. photos were so bad omg i cannot take it i hope the 34ths find a place with nice lighting for our prom next year. either that or i'm gonna have to borrow a dslr or something. iphone camera is totally not good enough for that kind of rubbish lighting. also found out something which kinda shocked me but actually i did think of the possibility of that before. just that it was too impossible to be true. but it is :O but anyway i totally regret not asking for a photo with the pseudo sunbae HAHA people who know will know who i am talking about. ok nvm ignore me. and ytd was the first time i actually ran for a last train omg. something ticked off life experience checklist.

today was a mad rush day HAHA woke up early in the morning to watch frozen with jaety!! omg it was just like a animation but musical style. omg i love musicals everytime i hear people sing theatre it really makes me want to pursue my little love for singing a bit more. i mean like all my life i've been doing choral but theatre has always interested me more. but there's nowhere to properly do theatre songs unless i take proper voice lessons. ah but at least for now i still have an avenue to sing so i shall cherish it :> 

then went to join the class for lunch to celebrate fuijin's birthday!!! freeloaded at seoul garden HAHA cos i ate so much in the morning. ate mainly dessert though. a very short session but i'm glad i came hehe i like spending time with the class esp since all the guys are going into ns next year and like i won't see them anymore. sad life. and the j2 guys are going into ns like in 3 months time omg too fast i'm seriously going to miss them. ytd at grad night i was just emoing about how i won't see the j2s in school anymore and ytd was probably the last time i'd get to talk to them properly, unless they come back to school for fun. but the people i'm close to arent really the sort who would so sigh. and the church ns people are even worse cos theyre gonna move to saturday so weekend lunches won't be as frequent/may not even happen anymore. sigh sigh sigh T_T and after 3 days i'm not gonna see jeremiah lim with hair anymore this is too fast :( 

anyway after lunch with class i met pop and kit to buy materials to make nametags!! a bit apprehensive of how they're gonna turn out. crossing my fingers that they'd meet my standards. for the other 2 years of making nametags my nametags have always disappointed me, though the group members said they were fine. really hope this year's nametags will be nice!! plus kit pop and i are making the same type of nametags :> gonna meet them again tmr to make the tags HAHA 

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today during GEM pdom said something about how people's lives can be like, and one of the types of lives are lives full of motion but no direction. and i thought about it, and that kinda sounds like my life. my life is so busy nowadays. i spend it trying to catch up with so many people, basically that's how i spent my whole holiday. ok plus council work. so much motion, so many things to get done, so many places to go, so many people to meet. but am i going anywhere? not exactly. i'm doing so many things but i don't actually have a goal in life. (oh not to forget, WATCHING K DRAMAS). i have so many things to do but they all don't really lead me anywhere. i am just stagnant. i guess it's time to find a direction in life. not that i don't already know that, but i can't just wait for a direction in life to plop into my mind. it's not gonna happen. doesn't have to be some lofty aspiration, but at least something i can look back and see that i have grown in. i should start thinking of stuff i wanna do, like skills i wanna learn, people i want to help etc. how i can be a person of significance. in the past i wasn't that busy but i was definitely making more of an impact in people's lives than i do now. a good impact at that. nowdays idek what i am doing with my life oh my. 

PS thanks plum for the tribal bag and js for the eau de toilette HAHAH u guys will prob never see this though