decisions

so i just confirmed one of the hardest decisions of my life so far. not that it was actually difficult to make, the choice was clear and my heart already decided after lunch today but i was just too scared of confirming it and formally agreeing to it. the responsibility that comes with it is huge, and i don't know if i'm up for it. it's lives we are talking about here and in lower sec they go through their foundational growing up years. no place to screw up man haha. feeling extremely inadequate esp since the reply isn't coming in but i know God will see me through!! he doesn't call the equipped, he equips the called!! hanging on to this for the next 6 months and i really hope God will use me to impact these lives i am going to have influence over. and i feel so alone for now because i have no friends in this HAHA. but i guess it's when i step into the unknown that God will show his provision and that his grace will be sufficient for me! homaigosh as i type this i am getting so scared and uncertain about the future omg.

it has only been 2 days and it starts tomorrow i am not even mentally prepared halp