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yesterday night was a rough night, found out stuff that hurt me a lot mainly because i was totally unaware and didn't expect people so close to me to feel this way and like behave like everything was normal. felt more scary than anything. but anyway, because of that i finally ran back to God and had a good good tawg. finally understand that i need to choose wisely the people i allow myself to be vulnerable to. and i think i'm done finding my security in people, feeling safe when i know there will be people there for me because God is always there for me!!! i don't know why i didn't have eyes to see that before - i mean i always knew but never understood nor embraced the fact.