more than you think

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sometimes i really cannot take it when people think i don't care about them when i really do. or that i don't treasure them enough as a friend just because i don't talk to them as much nowadays. idk, maybe they feel like i'm not making enough effort to keep in contact and be extremely updated about each others' lives. but how about looking at it this way, i don't need to talk to you everyday because i am secure in our friendship and know that even if we don't talk everyday we can still remain close? there isn't a stress to constantly keep up but when i know you've still got my back and can turn to you when i am down. and when we meet it's like nothing's changed. 

it's not like i don't want to keep meeting/talking. there are so many things bombarding me idek how i can finish my work how am i supposed to meet every single good friend i have. plus nowadays i like to meet one-on-one so it's even harder to keep up with everyone. throw in 2 extremely hardcore cca and church and family commitments, i can just die now. 

ahhh God give me strength to survive pl0x