it's been a week into internship and time has really flown by!!!! feels like i just started yet it feels like i've seen and done so many things already. i'm really glad i decided to take on the internship because i rly get to see lots of stuff!!! we were thrown into an OT first thing on the first day and i saw a cut open knee. i also saw a cut open elbow right in front of me. and watching a total knee replacement surgery on the third day, omg. minting and i were wondering what in the world tkr was so we googled and "total knee replacement" came out and we were just like whuuuuut. scared. HAHA. we are def more numb to ops now, esp after op wednesday. also minting left early on wed so i was left alone with prof and we went to see some ops and i got to wear the x ray coat!!! HAHAHA. random thing checked off bucket list. then prof even made me take a photo of a hole they cut so that they could get a pic of the nerve, since i was the only one non sterile. HAHA.
also, i really like clinics!! maybe not so much now because i'm getting bored of it but on tue it was really interesting. i think its cool how doctors can judge and diagnose the patient just by looking, feeling and listening to their stories. it's so cool and that seems like something i wouldn't mind doing!!! i really mind doing surgery though. HAHA.
so yup, after 5 days of interning with a prof i am slightly more inclined to med than i was before, mainly because it's interesting AND meaningful. most other jobs only have one of each, but being a doctor is such a great privilege and you really get to see a lot of things others are unaware of. like today, we saw this oman girl who flew all the way to singapore to fix her legs. she has uneven thighs and shins, so basically one knee is higher than the other. and one of her legs looks a bit funny too idk what the problem is and i cant rmb the term for it, but it must be v serious that they flew all the way here and even had a translator to help communicate with prof. her case is gonna be brought up during the post grad course when some famous profs are coming down. it's really cool how profs like to email other profs from all over the world to seek their opinions on how to solve unique/difficult problems!!!
also my impression of private vs public hospitals has changed too. right now, if i were to be operated on i think i rather go to a public hospital because it's rly impt to have a team of surgeons instead of only one because this whole medicine thing is based on judgement and my surgeon could have judged wrongly and no one will know. also, private surgeons earn way too much HAHAHAHA. if i ever become such a person i think i'll work at a public hospital too, because like what soumya(a medical fellow from india - a fellow is sort of an exchange student) said, in private clinics you don't get to see the people who need the help most. which is rather true because the prices are soooo high!!! ytd i even saw a guy who couldn't afford to pay for a leg brace and had to request for a cheaper alternative instead although nuh is so highly subsidised already. :(
but then again, it takes an extremely long time to get to the stage i wanna get to if i were to become a doctor, and idk if that is worth all the sacrifice. the truth is sad, doctors really don't have work life balance, or at least not till you reach prof's stage. i want a normal life too, i want a family, i want to serve in church!! and honestly i think med is going to take quite a lot of my time away. as of now i already feel like i don't have any time for myself or for anything else other than work. and idk if i'm willing to live like this and worse for 13+++ years of my life?? :(
but then again, it all depends on my results HAHA i guess med is a nice profession but it def isn't as glamorous as everyone makes it out to be. you'll understand when you see how doctors in the hospital function. they are literally running from place to place. oh gosh.
in any case, it's been a really fun and fulfilling week!!! grew quite a lot closer to minting too because i see her like all day everyday HAHA. also met some friends for dinner this week and yay good times ^__^
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