phew

today was a better day!!!!!! i'm glad math is over but that just means we are closer to the sciences which i have neglected for really long. 

anyway, yesterday made me realise that we really don't understand the importance of things, or how much we really want things, until we are on the brink of losing them. i always thought As were eventually gonna turn out fine no matter what maybe because of how nicely Os turned out. but no, and i finally understood that after yesterday's paper when not getting what i want was such a near reality. i really almost died. but things like that aren't always bad, they spur you on to do better and give you more determination to do things like you've never done before. i had the most drive yesterday i've had ever since promos and i honestly am quite proud of myself for working so hard even though it was just an evening/night. HAHA. i wonder what it feels like to feel like that everyday. to be so motivated by something you just keep working for it. :O

sadly the motivation has kind of worn off aiyo i think i burn out too easily. i even have time to upload a picture for this post LOL. k no tomorrow will be a focused day!!! econs and physics are nearing. time is running out!!!!!!!!!!!!1!